milo ais is nais
Friday, January 08, 2010
so this is a new year, just 8 days later. it has been a very long time since this space was last filled up, but since it was for a better reason, it doesn't matter all that much. by default, it is again a very quiet new year celebration. or rather, no celebration at all. i am an old person in many ways, and this time, it is just being lazy over the new year hype. the thought of being stuck in a jam on the roads of kl, is totally unbearable. also being stuck in packets of sardin in a crowd isn't an appealing thought. so i too, have become an old folk by deciding to stay home, trying to sleep before 12 but never fail to be frustrated at the fireworks by midnight. it is an annual thing. annoyed at 12. oh what a feeling.
new years should be great, because everything starts anew. everyone aims to be a better person, to have better habits, lifestyles and er to have new goals? but like i reckon, new year resolutions almost never happen. or rather, it is given up upon the next week after it was set. what irony yeehar.
looking at my resolutions last yr, it looked kinda childish. haha. like swimming twice a week which never happened after the 1st two weeks. but that doesn't mean there's no improvement from the last year. you discover more achievements when your mind is not set upon any. it works more effectively go try it. :) like how i have become a better cook (thanks to all of you who thought that cooking wasn't my thing) and how i indulge myself in doing housewifey things. the joy and glamour! behind closed doors anyway.
i am now 21. yet still remembered how i couldn't differentiate between a degree and a diploma when i was 14. and why do they always have assignments. and why do they look so serious and intimidating. and how nice it is to have the freedom in driving around. and how they look smart and studious too. but now, i am all that of the above. what i wrote under 'my ambitions' section in school? it wrote police woman, fire fighter and something aggresive i'm sure. but never a teacher or doctor. that was the standard answer that time which i found lame. hahaha. then, after discovering the con job of civil engineers' spelling, i diverted to the greener path.
as a new year begins, are you ready to rediscover yourself? like how i struggle to keep up with all my whims and fancies and odd habits. and high maintenance issues. to tell you frankly, i think i am quite a nuisance. myindexfingerissacreddon'ttouchit. but i believe that our lives are definitely lived with more aims than a dog who just lies around at home. :)
new years should be great, because everything starts anew. everyone aims to be a better person, to have better habits, lifestyles and er to have new goals? but like i reckon, new year resolutions almost never happen. or rather, it is given up upon the next week after it was set. what irony yeehar.
looking at my resolutions last yr, it looked kinda childish. haha. like swimming twice a week which never happened after the 1st two weeks. but that doesn't mean there's no improvement from the last year. you discover more achievements when your mind is not set upon any. it works more effectively go try it. :) like how i have become a better cook (thanks to all of you who thought that cooking wasn't my thing) and how i indulge myself in doing housewifey things. the joy and glamour! behind closed doors anyway.
i am now 21. yet still remembered how i couldn't differentiate between a degree and a diploma when i was 14. and why do they always have assignments. and why do they look so serious and intimidating. and how nice it is to have the freedom in driving around. and how they look smart and studious too. but now, i am all that of the above. what i wrote under 'my ambitions' section in school? it wrote police woman, fire fighter and something aggresive i'm sure. but never a teacher or doctor. that was the standard answer that time which i found lame. hahaha. then, after discovering the con job of civil engineers' spelling, i diverted to the greener path.
as a new year begins, are you ready to rediscover yourself? like how i struggle to keep up with all my whims and fancies and odd habits. and high maintenance issues. to tell you frankly, i think i am quite a nuisance. myindexfingerissacreddon'ttouchit. but i believe that our lives are definitely lived with more aims than a dog who just lies around at home. :)
and i love singapore! i shall consider living here forever.
singapore is like malaysia's dream, which will only happen in 2020 (or maybe not).
cheers. :o
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seasells and swings
Saturday, December 05, 2009
:)
this is how speechless i am.
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amendment
Monday, November 02, 2009
like any other posts, i know i won't have the courage to speak forth whatever i intended to say at this point.
so what happens when your fairy tale dream is crushed? is there a plan b to fall back on? in a narrow perspective, things are complicated when we do not wish to see it in a simple view, as this is one sense, named self denial.
perhaps i am fond of the idea of acting and thinking in the past because back then, every single flaw in life is perfectly covered by the grace of God. but what happens if there is no memory left of the past?
there is no present to go into because everything seems new and not welcoming. furthermore there is no future in your eyes, because knowing that somehow, days ahead of you aren't rly promising after all.
so when life pushes you in the gap between the past and the present, how best could your solution be? to continue living in the void, confused in choosing between the two which seems quite redundant after all or just let emotions reign in its utmost shape?
perhaps i am fond of the idea of acting and thinking in the past because back then, every single flaw in life is perfectly covered by the grace of God. but what happens if there is no memory left of the past?
there is no present to go into because everything seems new and not welcoming. furthermore there is no future in your eyes, because knowing that somehow, days ahead of you aren't rly promising after all.
so when life pushes you in the gap between the past and the present, how best could your solution be? to continue living in the void, confused in choosing between the two which seems quite redundant after all or just let emotions reign in its utmost shape?
well, simply because we do not know what would broken hearts become of.
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brinjal=aubergine
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i was never a believer of umbrellas as some of you would know. if God were to pour rain, why avoid it?
so, i used to enjoy the rainy days back in malaysia. not just for the fact that its chilling. but because you know what it means to sit at home, sip a cup of coffee and reflect on the rain drops.
here, rain is the mother nature alarm clock. when it's gloomy instead of sunny, you know its time to wake up. and you live in a perpetual denial that the clock is right ,by default. over here, rain is not an excuse to stay home.
today's rain cum wind reminded me of a story told to a friend. literally, i felt the same way. the wind was blowing me apart. best part? the umbrella flipped. an inevitable experience in the uk. what a funny sight to look at and a good laughing stock too. but not too enjoyable to experience.
so, what do you do? you shut the umbrella and continue walking. or if you prefer, walk where the wind blows you to.
here, rain is the mother nature alarm clock. when it's gloomy instead of sunny, you know its time to wake up. and you live in a perpetual denial that the clock is right ,by default. over here, rain is not an excuse to stay home.
today's rain cum wind reminded me of a story told to a friend. literally, i felt the same way. the wind was blowing me apart. best part? the umbrella flipped. an inevitable experience in the uk. what a funny sight to look at and a good laughing stock too. but not too enjoyable to experience.
so, what do you do? you shut the umbrella and continue walking. or if you prefer, walk where the wind blows you to.
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but by the grace of god
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
you know you're not home when...
-there's no food placed on the table every meal.
-grocery shopping is always on the top of your to do list.
-there's no home to be in. just a room to yourself.
-you're deprived of tv.
-its quiet all around you.
-thinking about what to cook is such a hassle.
-there are less chores to do.
-there's so much time to spend on yourself.
-the laptop is your newly adopted 'relative'.
-you run out of eggs. or rice.
-leisure time means time to wash those clothes.
-you walk everywhere. be it 5 mins or 1 hour. you just have to continue walking.
-people go 'huh' when you mention 'lah'. shame on them.
-you are desperate for maggi mee and milo when its not there.
-the best thing to do is ponder at pictures of friends. because that's the closest you can get.
-you get fire alarm drills at 7.30 in the morning.
-you think of family and friends while shopping. you wish they'll have fun too.
-you do not have a bolster.
cardiff is pretty, cold and unpredictable weather-wise. currently living in a female hall, thus no late night drunk and puke situations. broke the no pork and beef commitment once. classes are not crazy, but work is. cooking is such a chore when you don't have everything in the chinese world. skin is dry, so i will return looking like an old lady. cookies save my life. i stock up on them. :) orange juice is my medicine at all times, it keeps sicknesses away (or am i strong?). my legs will soon turn into iron legs because of the rapid walking. walking is jogging. :)
my wrist and waist is one hole on the buckle smaller now. i reaped what i (have to) sow. gahahaha. :)
and say hello to comforting shoes. :)
okay love you all. ta. :)
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with your love
Sunday, September 20, 2009
so here i am sitting by the windows, trying to remember home and all its goodness.
you never know how much you have until you lose it. this saying is true. while the family is having fun having friends over and having good food, all you want is just to be there for the moment to enjoy the warmth of their presence. sigh.
so, cardiff isn't as much as what i expected. it is pretty small and the city is nowhere near our golden triangle. it is quiet and cold. wind is pretty strong at times. and night is simply freezing that you can't even walk in slippers.
but besides the weather and food, everything is fine here. its hard to settle in though. now, it just feels like i'm on a holiday. hahaha. and the place here is clean!
okay shall update some other time. gotta go. :) ta malaysians. loves.
so, cardiff isn't as much as what i expected. it is pretty small and the city is nowhere near our golden triangle. it is quiet and cold. wind is pretty strong at times. and night is simply freezing that you can't even walk in slippers.
but besides the weather and food, everything is fine here. its hard to settle in though. now, it just feels like i'm on a holiday. hahaha. and the place here is clean!
okay shall update some other time. gotta go. :) ta malaysians. loves.
and behind me is cardiff university. :) will upload more photos in fb soon.
miss you all.
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like the sun
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
i feel like a celebrity.
(minus the body shape and height)
(minus the body shape and height)
sigh. i've never felt so wanted before in my life. i've got presents, cards, letters, messages, tonnes of gatherings and hugs that i've never even received on any of my bdays. perhaps because you only leave once but bdays are celebrated once a year.
they ask me if i'm sad. honestly, the thought of leaving my friends and family behind leaves the 'keberatan hati' in me. but when i think about my luggage, oh what a killsorrow.
i'm going crazy. who knew leaving would be so tough? having to compress a room into a luggage bag? and tell me how is that even possible. i've zipped my luggage ten times. just because i am reminded that there's another 'essential' to bring. SIGH. oh i brought 3 cookbooks and mixes and pastes. because they know i wouldn't survive cooking myself. :(
so now cardiff is 16-18 degrees. i don't even know how cold or warm is that. i just know that i've 5 kg of jackets, cardigans, windbreakers, winter jackets etc. and i am shipping more maggi mees and milo! teehee.
panic! in the house.
okay i'm blabbering. gotta go download more movies before i don't get the chance to.
they ask me if i'm sad. honestly, the thought of leaving my friends and family behind leaves the 'keberatan hati' in me. but when i think about my luggage, oh what a killsorrow.
i'm going crazy. who knew leaving would be so tough? having to compress a room into a luggage bag? and tell me how is that even possible. i've zipped my luggage ten times. just because i am reminded that there's another 'essential' to bring. SIGH. oh i brought 3 cookbooks and mixes and pastes. because they know i wouldn't survive cooking myself. :(
so now cardiff is 16-18 degrees. i don't even know how cold or warm is that. i just know that i've 5 kg of jackets, cardigans, windbreakers, winter jackets etc. and i am shipping more maggi mees and milo! teehee.
panic! in the house.
okay i'm blabbering. gotta go download more movies before i don't get the chance to.
till cardiff. :)
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